From here on out my life is on private

Summer vacation has officially started! Congrats to all my fellow grads for making it out of New Britain High School a.k.a. God's blind spot.
Yesterday was an amazing day.

I have high hopes for this summer. Here goes!

Here I am enjoying my finals and work free day. Yesterday was the end of classes which was pretty liberating. This month is going great! I wish i coulda worked a little more though cuz i need money to go out and do stuff this summer. I guess i'm just going to have to save what i got. ! week to graduation! :D

I think i got the green light to move upstairs :D. So  When I do, everyones gotta come over and play wii or something :D It'll be fun. And no ramen allowed near the carpet tom :P

Today was definitely a day to remember. Thanks everyone :D

Today was pretty awesome. It was senior skip day so i stayed home. I went on a ton of errands, and dd some decorating for tomrrow. At 5 I went to work. I had a random mishap :P. I got to see brit, sally, amanda and sarah. It made me really happy. When i got back homw i brought my computer upstairs and set up the dance lighting, and now the upstairs is pretty dang awesome(yes i am typing from my upstairs)
Party's tomorrow! woooot. And i'll be 18 in a few min :D. Things are pretty awesome.  Tomorrow will be so much fun!

Tell me why the last few weeks of school have been excruciating bad. Seriosuly I feel physcially sick when i go to school. It's prolly just my mind though, cuz I know were sooo fricking close to finishing school but this is like some torturous trial b4 we graduate.

It's really bad, today in AP psych the conbination of my lack of sleep(since i can never fall asleep at a regualr time on sunday nights), terrible hunger, anger from failing my final exam, anger from dumbasses who want to start shit, stress from 3 projects due next week, and the AP exam tomorrow literally had me shaking. I'm actually surprised noone noticed.  I think i was about to barf cuz i was nauseous. I prolly was having a minor panic attack or sumthing who the heck knows. Either way it just felt awful. When i finally got food and saw some good friends at lunch i felt so much better. But this still doeesnt change anything.

i also lost track of my prom date which isnt that great considering prom is soon.

I'm really looking forward to my B-day sat, i seriously need it so badly.

omg it's 2nd fricking semester!.....

....and i wish it was over.

Well today started off alright, but then progressed from pretty retarded, to mildly annoying, to "OMG will you shut up".

Haha I'm a little cranky because I'm in a ton of classes i dont want or need, but i'l kinda just there to enjoy the company and stuff and it'd better than having a study hall.

Basically I dont have period A, Need B, dont need C need D and then i dont need anything after that. Why am I there? Ummm Cuz i prolly cant drop em? Cuz there are actually cool people I wont see otherwise? I dunno. School is so gay I dont want to be there anymore!!

My creative writing class is full of minorities. so basically I'm going to be put in a group with fricking kids who dont even want to be there and are just gonna make the class annoying and I'm going to have to answer most of the questions because i'm probably the only one capable of deeper thoughts other than about getting knocked up and rap music. At least jon is gonna be there we can share the annoyance.

Lunch is awesome, when you get around the fact that it's crowded, obnoxious, full of fricking minorities that get a kick out of annyoing you and disgusting because by last period all the lunch tables are soiled with remains from other peoples lunches.

On top of that I'm sitting in my classes knowing I really dont have to be there but and stuck there anyways. WHYYYYY

Physics has some really fun people and a great teacher, but the majority of kids are so stupid!! I hate the work of Honors and AP but i hate the mediocricy in the inteligence of the kids in level one. I just cant win.

I think I'm being a hypochondriac but I always feel tiredish but i think it's just my laziness manifesting itself. I dont want to do anything but sleep. Is there something wrong with that??

I'm out of motivation ;_; did fine first half  but now i dunno. Senioritis is kicking in right aboout now. I just wanna party hang out and have fun. School wastes too much time >_>

Yeah I'm home from school today, didnt see the point in getting up early for a few classes. Yep today is pretty darn awesome. I'm having a much better week this time around, thank goodness.

I've been shopping alot and i got like little to no money. Don't worry brit i still got enough for a plethora of pocky and snacks and stuff tomorrow. :DD
So yeah i've been around and stuff. Still pretty busy with work and all but thats never gonna end :P

Anyone else think this school years been pretty intense so far? Maybe it's just me and my full fricking schedule that i should cut down next semester.

New York next week! (i hope) Gotta do more shopping!!! Lol I will find a way to hit up chinatown once again.

Lol I realized i'mma really spiteful person. OMG I have a grudge! >runs and hides<

The next three days should be particularly fun, and i def needa do my book report. and start reading the book X_x The things i do to myself, hehe.

Still debating about college. >sigh<

Psych note time!

Yeah this week went better then i expected. I actually got to hang with just about everyone at least once which made me happy. Fridays plans almost got killed for a third time (october 6th was against me) ;_; but my managers loved me and helped me out a bit. Or else I woulda been emo ray friday and saturday. Hunted Graveyard was scary fun, and i made a connection with an asian girl (almost walked into her cuz i dont watch where i go :P). No orange streak on that press against the wall ride. I was scared i was gonna fall out of the fricking lighting ride or whatever it was called. Enterprise is surprisingly homo. I made friend with a random girl on  zoomerang. I rode a horsy on the carousel and ate green apple icecream. Dirty jokes around kids on the ferris wheel. So many couples it made me feel left out x_x.

Today i decided i have some xtra cash and so i ebayed it. I wasnt really sure what i was looking for, then a little while ago it came to my attention that there was a TV series and a second Waterboys movie and I hit up ebay again and bought both! :D. Best purchase i've made in a while.

So that was my wonderful weekend. I work alot this week i'mma be X_X but it'sall good cuz the grudge 2 comes out friday! Wooo!!

Today was a crazy day! I woke up at like 6:23 and went to my mom sayin' "Why didn't you get me up earlier" she said she tried but i went back to sleep. It's gonna be sooo sweet sleeping late tomorrow mornin.

My exam was long and crappy, us history really sucks!! But When that 9:50 Bell rang I said "Fuck yeah" and ran outta school. I don't think i've ever wanted a school year to end as bad as i have this year.

ParaPara was excellent today! There were many mishaps but in the end we finally got to dance, partially in the shade of my backyard. That lasted a while til my legs started to give out.

Dez and Sam hung out for a whiiiiile. we danced and ate and reminisced about animes and old songs and a whole buncha stuff. I found alot of good songs I forgot i had. So nostalgic!

Man so 1 day down, many more to go. I just hope my whole summer goes as good as this.

>Sigh< tomorrow's prolly my two hardest exams one after another. I got French, and Forensics which are both out to kill me. Oh well I never liked French III that much anyways. I'm supposed to pick up the AP psychology summer reading stuff from Mrs. Canella. But I kinda don't wanna be in that class anymore. I mean, it's psych and all, but let's face it, I don't think i really want Ap that much. I mean it sounds nice and all and it will help my GPA if i do well but when did i start to care about that stupid number. Plus I'm only going to CCSU anyways =( .

I dunno, I think i'mma drop it though, i don't wanna become one of those dramatic nervous wreck kids that are all "OMGZZZ I'M IN AP LEMME BITCH TO PEOPLE WHO DON'T CARE!"

Eh I don't really think of the future too much anyways. Geez I havent even decided what i want to do with life. Oh well maybe if I'm lucky I'll find myself this summer. Haha We'll see about that. I kinda gotta drop my F*** the furture attitude. There's still the SAT I have to take over, and college apps and the college essays I dreading writing. If I think about all the stuff I have to do I'mma overload. So I'm not gonna think about it and slack off and indulge in digital entertainment. Cuz we all know thats what best. ^_^.

Theres so much I wanna do this summer, stuff i gotta get done, pple to see, and so on. I've been such a dreamer lately thinking about all the fun i'mma have this summer. I just wanna take in the good times and friends and just live it up. I feel pretty....adventurous i guess u can say.

Today was the last day of classes. Awesome stuff, sorta. I'm glad school's over beacause for the most part all the childish drama is over. I'm sick of all the he said she said, he did she did, ect. ect. It won't even matter in another year! Today was really fun,prety much alot of slacking, some review, and food!

I always try to be nice first, but sometimes you can only give so many second chances. I've tried over and over again give this person the benifit of the doubt, but I've given up. You know who you are, and to put it simply, I don't want anything to do with you.

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Well alot has happened lately. Well sorta alot i guess. First and foremost, I got a new job!!! PacSun at meriden mall recently hired me. I'm so happy cuz it has def. gotta be better than jCpenney. Speaking of, they made me work all weekend when i was only supposed to work one day. Today was a bitch of a day to work too, so i'm pretty damn pissed. pissed enough that i'm prolly gonna resign tomorrow, after i do training at PacSun. Oh well, thats what jcp gets for scheduling me like crazy and using me as a fill in whenever other people don't wanna work >_>.

School still can't end fast enough, i hate it to death. I'm at the point where i kinda wanna tell my teachers "screw you". Actually i'm not that mad at all my teachers, only kaushal. I hate french III. Mrs. Kaushals a failure at teaching and i hate her guts, and all she does is fricking busy work all the time because she doesn't want us to talk. Well maybe if she was a good teacher we'd actually listen to what her patheticness has to say. Fricking sucky teacher.

Para para's going excellent!!!! We got a good part of the performance down. Has anyone figured out a transition to motto motto inamotto yet? lol. CTcon's gonna rock this year!

Today was such a weird day. I was just totally out of it. I walked into people more than usual, disregarded alot of conversations,and daydreamed through all my classes. Oh and if anyone interrupted one of my thoughts, I'd snap at them...that mighta been a byproduct of being sleepy though...

So basically it was a mix of a sleepy, sad, mad and dreamy, which makes for a weirder me. I was just thinking alot about different stuff, which is usually something i leave for when i'm up late. From all my thinking, I've decided that i'm just frustrated at everything. Frustrated at school, work, and people and myself. School and work suck cuz all I really wanna go outside and have fun. I sound like a little kid, but hey, it sucks that i've been waiting since it got cold for spring, and so far i've only been to the park twice. I'm also getting mad because I wish I was more outgoing. while i have made alot of cool friends this year, since we don't really hang out and stuff, they're more like good aquaintances, which is cool, but i dunno. It's great having a tight circle of friends and I love 'em, but i don't wanna just close myself off to everyone else.
Another thing is, while everyone is out having fun I'm at home or at work or sumthing, being antisocial... I mean I could at least try a little harder to be talkative, but i've got all of nothing to say. I really don't know alot about stuff, and i guess i don't appeal to many people.
It feels like i'm just sitting here living the same mundane day to day life while everyone else is having interesting experiences and enjoying themselves.

best part is, it seems like noone really cares......Great now everyones gonna comment "of course we care" pshh, suuuure. >_>

I dunno what I'm writing anymore, it's just become really random, so i'mma just end it here.

...til we get our well deserved long weekend!! I need it so badly, the long weekend that is. :p. Then it'll be time for the summer, which can't come soon enough, cause I think everyone is getting to their breaking points.

At the end of school everyone seems to gett really crazy, like, either bitching at everything, getting stressed over finals, last minute he said/she said crap ect. Chill out people! We'll be free of this by about this time next month!....At least thats what I keep reminding myself. I havent exploded yet, but who knows, this may be my week.

I got a new camera, so It'll be cool to take some good quality pics as well as finally record some parapara. I kiinda don't have much time for that this week though... My sore throat doesn't hurt as much as it did 1 hour ago! Great!

Yeah todays the big 1-7 fer me. Pretty cool huh? All I want is a good peaceful rest of the school year and a good summer. And hopefully the hectiness of senior year won't get to me... Thanks to all my friends who wished me a happy birthday at school today, it was awesome. Thanks for the gifts too, and the wonderful shoutouts. Today was really awesome cuz of that.

Wow I just saw the most emotional movie that i've ever watched. And weird thing is it was a school assignment. I'm not totally sure but i think the project got pused back a week. Niice.

EMERGENCY PDP MEETING
Well it's kinda more of a photoshoot, so we can get a spot in the book. Darn deadlines screw up my schedule, but never fear I'm flexible. Afterschool, my house, no dancing nessesary. (unless you really wanna).

Here's our bio, unless I decide to change anything:

Para Dance Project
Para Para Dance Project is proud to announce their first live performance at this year’s Connecticon!
Inspired by Yoko Ishida, Para Para Dance Project was established in early October 2005 and originally consisted of three members; Raymond, Desiree and Jonathan. Soon after, they were joined two more members; Amanda and Samantha.
Since early ’06, Para Para Dance Project has been hard at work learning routines and choreographing their performance. They are proud to perform at Connecticon 2006.

sweet simple and to the point, ne?

I'm so obsessed in this cool techpara routine, hyper techno venus. The song and routine are excellent, and the girls are gorgeous! I really do <3 Techpara

see for yourself....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y7JrBKDb38Q&search=hyper%20techno%20